Why I’m going on the World Race

Hello everyone, I hope you’re all having an amazing day! I was at church today, talking to people about why I’m doing missionary work when it just crossed my mind that I never even posted it here. I want to start off by saying that I’ve always known about God, but I haven’t always believed in him. It wasn’t until recently that I started committing my life to him and putting all my faith in his Word. Like a lot of people, have I dealt with a great deal of depression, which led me to feel away from God. This distancing made me question whether or not I should have faith in him when all these horrible things happened in the world. During this time I was also dealing with being bullied, and for some reason, in my head, what they said to me outweighed all the good people I had in my life. Because of all this confusion and doubt in my head, I would start lashing out at my parents, who were the last people who deserved it. This led me to be sent to a place where I found the help. I needed and got to meet a psychologist who changed my perspective on many things. He wasn’t always a psychologist; he actually was a pilot for many years until he got in a car crash that paralyzed him. He told me that through all of it, of course, he had doubts about his life, but he never lost his faith in God. It wasn’t instant, but this confrontation made me think for a while and led me to pray many nights, asking God to help me understand my purpose better and accept his way of leading us to him. Through this prayer and the talks I had with my parents, I slowly made my way back to God, and was finally able to accept the fact that he had me go through all those experiences for a reason, whether I knew it or not. This very significant part of my life brought me back into the Kingdom and reminded me of how badly I used to want to help people who felt helpless, similar to the way I did. I first thought I would become a lawyer, but that only lasted probably a week. Then my mom helped me look into missionary work, and I was set on it the very first day I learned about it. I want to end up working for this ministry as I strongly feel that I can help people. I will be going to Cambodia, Thailand, Romania, and Guatemala, which are very problematic places, but that only makes me want to go even more. I’m very happy I’ve found God, and it just makes me so excited to reach out to people who need him the most. I’m sure I could list a thousand smaller things that bring me close to God each day, but that’s the beauty of him. God never rests and will always find ways to amaze you, even at your lowest points in life. I hope God finds you all well in reading this and that it can motivate you to love him and appreciate him even more.